In quest of Being Ms Perfect..

I have always tried to be the perfect organised kid..Getting up soon taking a bath and going to coll 15 mins b4 class begins..Konjam overna i would like to tell my prayers regularly,learn atleast for 3 hrs per day, do home work regularly..But that never works..I know..I know...

ITs only day b4 internals i reach out books..It is only atleast 3 mins after class begins I mumble an excuse me and rush in..And am hoping that i have time to take bath daily...Ahem..But sometimes i wonder that in the corner of my heart i too love being imperfect..!!!

Some of the best things that life can offer...

Life is all about moments that are lived rite? Few moments however leave a depth of impression in one's heart and they live forever as memories..The good news is that these moments do not come with a price tag.To put down a few they are,

*Confiding ur deepest secrets with your best friend whom u meet after years and find time shortening the distance between u and her.
*Watching the golden moon through the tree tops on a full moon day.
*Lazing on the bed on a weekend hearing music matching your mood.
*Eating slowly a five rs dairy milk and reading a romance story book.
*Going on a late nite shopping spree when the shops are about to be closed.
*Having hot water bath for an hour and more in a rainy winter morning.
*Crying as if ur heart mite break watching a movie!!
*Stealing from ur neighbor's plate even after a heavy meal.
*Walking through the clouds.( Thala kaveri experience)..
*Laughing till the stomach aches..
*Friendly bickering with flat mate..
*Savoring every moment of this drama called life with all its pains and joys..

Makeover!!!

Its quite sometime the Watercolor theme has been in my blog..Just tried out another for a change today..So we are moving from light shades to darker ones..There are few more areas in which i still gotto work on..For instance reducing the size of comments..Rite now am fed up with all those fiddling with the html script..To my horror i found tat some pics are completely out of alignment in the older posts..Yeah they got to be realigned deleted or whatsoever..But this is enough 4 today...Cheers for the new look :-)

Whither are we moving towards???

"Old age is a thief..U will never know when it steals towards u"..With each passing day a growing dread comes into me..Am growing a day older..What have i done??Today i was just flitting through my diary entries and i hit upon an entry which exactly matched my mood:an entry that i put up on 16 th april 2005..

"Today i wanna discuss about the ultimate futility of life and death..We come one day as helpless babies soliciting the help of mama then grow up to be hardened wretches create wonderful illusions, weave dreams the end up earning money getting married raising babies and kicking the bucket!!!What's all this for???"

Is living a respectful life the ultimate goal??Some of my greatest role models are my own great grandmas and grannies..Their life emulates hardwork simplicity acceptance and grace..Will i be like them..i wonder!!!!

Change with time..

As we grow up we change..Some childhood dislikes and fears vanish..Some classic examples in my case is that when i was a kid i hated curds and pizzas..Now am not very fond of them.But they r definitely not in my hate list..Another great change is that a month back i was scared of using the escalator..After gng to the gym and getting used to the treadmill the escalator is nothing..

When i entered college i was not much familiar with public transport and i used to dread each time i travel fearing that i will get down at the wrong destination or unwittingly show out my ignorance..Now am perfectly comfortable..So is the case of the formidable bank..I always thought that i will end up storing my savings under the bed and my change in an old socks..Though am in my third attempt of trying to open an account in SBI and have lost my TMB ATM card and passbook am kinda comfy in the bank...Atleast i know where to ask 4 help...
The final change in me and the most incredible one is that though am a bit scared am not entirely intimidated by dogs and am even thinking of having one as pet..This is especially significant as i had been chased by two bitches 2 days after they had given birth to 14 puppies..Their maternal instincts thought that i was going to attack their kids when i was walking by their litter tapping a stick..Thanks to my stars that i was wearing a tuf jean that day..Looking into the pathetic eyes of our campus dogs might have caused this drastic change i guess..Whatsoever wishing for everlasting friendship with man's best friend :-)

Looking back and moving forward..

I have been a diarist from my senior yrs at school..Then somehow the habit died after my third yr at coll for few reasons..One thing i cannot be completely true to my paper pal as there r some thoughts that has to be censored and not put in black and white..Then well there was a fear that anyone can read through it..Now as new yr dawns due to compulsive diarist habit i would like to look back into few moments that has to be cherished in 2009..

First half of 2009 was my last few days in MEPCO...So they we precious few days which i will cherish..The new yr eve was terribly cold outside..We had our party out in our flat compound..I can still remember those who called me up and wished me at 12 tat nite...

From Jan 1 to May 21 the days literally flew..Notable events in the middle were birthday parties,sleeping through classes and getting caught,the days spent hanging out in canteen controls lab and computer lab with sir shooing us out at times..Then the usual college stuff exams ,heartbreaks, fights, friendship and farewell...

Even while i was at coll i was kinda preparin 4 this exam or tat writing one test after other..GATE,NTPC,TANCET and lot more..the list can go on..Though i had 3 months after coll in which i could happily laze about i spent all my precious time preparing 4 those awful tests for which i had applied..:-(

Fate or destiny then led me to Anna univ on Aug 22 nd..Then the scene shifted to che..Chennai was a kinda new experience..So was Anna univ..Meeting new people with diff attitudes and outlook..Moving to a new place...Finding growth in old relationships..It was all fun and a learning experience..So life goes on..

I well remember writing these words in my diary on 2009..2007 was better than 2008..2009???
2009 was much better than 2008...2010???